And I need to have a little rant..... I am so full of despair about
climate change, I am desperate to change the way the world works so
that we can tackle this terrifying and overwhelming future we are
facing, I believe I can do it, I have the ability to extremely
persuasive when I need to, I am not an idiot and I am passionate and
dedicated. Yet rather then giving me a job where I can do something, be
involved use my skills and passion, rather then recognise the need for
action, and maybe passion I am employed in a boring job, with no chance
of doing anything to help anyone (no that is not true, I provide a
great person for my boss to cut down and bully in front of other staff)
and treated like an idiot.
Meanwhile this organisation that I adore flies people around the world
to participate in mutual m#asturbation exercises and talk about how
great they are while not doing anything to stop the problem. People who
work in advertising are valued more highly then me and my skills (or
maybe I am imagining them?) are not used or even acknowledged.
I would do it for free, but that is a little bit difficult...
So I give up.
It is not worth it, other people have jobs that don't make them
despair, they can support themselves and feel respected and content,
maybe even get a promotion, or a pay rise... I am on the same rate I
was when I was 22. I have been trying for eight year to get the chance
to do something important and meaningful, I know I can campaign, I know
I can change the world, people listen to me, I have new and interesting
ideas, I have never worked in advertising because I am too busy
fighting the society that will self immolate and I believe advertising
is a perfect example of all that is flawed in our system. But I am not
good enough to be given the chance.
Fine, I will work in advertising, I will actively campaign to
accelerate the end of the world. I'm going to work for oil companies,
the tobacco lobby, palm oil manufacturers, car companies and I am going
to show them how to Greenwash. I reckon I will get a sh*t load further
then I ever will here.
The saddest part is maybe after doing that for two years I could finally get the job I want. If I sold out and used my skills for commercial corporate gains, then I would finally be valued by this institution....
Meanwhile I have decided to never have children, I am seriously thinking about how to deal with huge upheaval and disaster, I don't believe the future is bright, I am scared of what will happen in my lifetime. I am preparing for the apocalypse.
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