I haven't spend so much time with my grandma before for until last Saturday. We had talked about almost everything. And I guess I made my grandma happy cause she usally don't laugh alot. But she had made my eyes open a little bit wider. And I got to see the real truth about life.....

So last Saturday my grandma had watched me and my brothers. We were at my mom and dad's store, and since I'm not 16 yet some adult had to be there watching me. So it was my grandma. For the couple of hours that she was there with me, I got to know her better. See when I was a kid, I really didn't talk to her that much. To tell you the truth I was kinda scared of my own grandma! So hat Saturday I got to know her better. Man....she is cool.....I mean she is tight....cool.....man she is fun to be around with. But anyway when we first had arrived at the store, she had gave me this piece of paper that she wrote when she had got bored. It had said something like this...."Life. Now I know what life is all about. Life is about fancy cars, houses, and money. But even though you have all of this, God can take this all away from you in a blink of an eye." To me this had meant alot alot to me. It had made me open my eyes after she had explained this to me. And after that we were just talking about life. About treating others the way you want to be treated, and being nice no matter how ugly they are on the inside, and about gossip. When she was saying stuff about gossip, she had told me about the time when she had got into a fight when she was in her 20's cause this lady was spreading rumors, that really made me laugh. I couldn't believe that my grandma had got into a fight. But that whole talk was unbelievable. And I'm glad I got to spend my time with my grandma.

Today is Aug. 4th, 2005. My first time in high school.

Today was very strange. It was so crowd in the school. Man I couldn't think. I seen some old friends that had went to middle school with me and some other people that I know. But really I don't like high school. It seems to disorganized. All the students in there were acting so stupid like they ain't got no sence. I really don't wanna go to this school, but I have to do it like everybody else.

MAN I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL!

Is this true? "Back Then They Didn't Want Me, Now I Am Hot All On Me"-Mike Jones.

See this song, is kinda true. These kind of things happen in real life anyway. See before you were like the outcast, and once you get big and popular they want to be all around you. That is similar to high school. But I think this had happen to everybody once in there life. You may not know it but it did.

All this is so new to me. And I have just figured this out.

Last summer when I was watching my mom's store. All these people came in smelling musty and they just really stank. The people that alot some of them really stank. And they put no doedrant. That was sad. And I belive that some of them didn't really take baths. I think that all people should take bath just to smell good. But my mom said that some people don't belive in doedrant. But I think that they should. Or at least take some baths. Because they really need to smell themselves once in a while they really stank. But that is in my oppion.

Today on June the 18th, I had went to this party. It was like a sweet 16 party. It was alright. But I really wanted to dance. Cause everybody else was doing the bus-stop and everything. And all I did the whole time was sitting down. My friend wanted me to go real bad and dance with her. But to tell you the truth I can't dance. I had told her at first that I didn't want to because all of the people. But I came back and told her that I can't dance. If I could dance I would be out there dance with everybody else. But you know what, I wouldn't be doin' those hoci' dances. You would catch me doin that. My friend is suppose to teach me to dance. I hope she does. Cause I would really like to learn.

Well I think I know how, but I am too shy. And I get scared of everybody looking at me. That also has something to do with to.

But really to my friend that said she was going to teach me to dance, I would like you teach me how to be comfortable around other people, and aslo I want you to teach me how to dance. If you don't mind. Cause I would really appericate.

What is love? I don't understand. People say that love hurts. Do they mean physically, menatly, or emotionaly. I just don't get it. And how do you know that you are in love? I was just wondering after seening something off tv.

Yesterday I had seen the most funniest but sadest thing ever. I had seen this old guy in a motor scooter, trying to cut his grass. At first it was funny but now that i think about it, it is not funny anymore it is sad. So later on like around 8:30 I went to ride my bike where he lived at. That old guy had a SON. His son could have cut his grass for him. For crying out loud. The man had no legs in a motor scooter pushing a lawn mower. I had said to myself that is sad. And that man let his father cut his grass. That is really sad. When my dad get old, and he is in a scooter, I am going to tell my big head brothers to cut the grass.

That is really sad.

Okay so I know this girl right and she was in the same grade as I am. But the differnce between me and her is that, I am going to the 9th and she is going to the 8th again. You know I have been think about her lately. She is going on the wrong direction. For a 14 year old you don't need to be hanging around guys that is like 19 or 18. And from my expericences I have watched this girl grow up. Well from her point of view she thinks she is grown. I guess I am still considered as a kid. But from what I think and from what you look at. She is a hoe. Just to be straight up with you. And I think she is on the wrong path. From the way she is doing things she might  get pregant. And I'm not going to say anything when that happens. Cause I had already told her so. Even though it is not my problome, I can't stop thinking about it. Cause if you think about it, it is sad for some 12, 13, or 14 year old getting pregant. WHAT HAS OUR WORLD GOTTEN INTO?????????