Well nothing has really happen so far.  O yeah....expect for my favorite show.  See my ma has this filipino channel...and I watch this show called "Wowowee" man you know what them crazy peoples did....???? See it was there Aniversary, and a whole bunch of people lined up outside...I MEAN ALOT OF PEOPLE!!  And since they don't have good gard people...they had a stampeed... Cause alot of people really wanted to get in. Cause Wowowee gives out money and cars and junk like that. But the sad part is that 75 people died and i think 300 injured.  That was sad foreal.... : (  And you know what that means when people die......LAWSUIT!!!!!  Then the ABS-CBN people the people that show the show on tv said if it was up to them the show could conitune...but it's not up to them....It is up to the government. And the government might say NO.  I hope they don't cancle it...cause I was really looking forward to goin on Wowowee. Man y they got to be so ghetto......????????

A poem that came from my heart...that really meant something to me...meant....

Just like that you were gone. Out of my life. Just like that. What about me? What about us? You left me in the cold with nothing on my back, but the clothes I had on. I thought me and you had meant something. But I guess not. Just like that..., I remember you and me, staring into each others eyes...not looking anywhere else. Sad uh? How time fly's. Just like that you were in my arms. You holding me tight, not leting go. You said we were going to be forever. But I guess not. Sad uh? How time fly's? Just like that...you were up and out of my life.

Man I have nothing to do, no place to go and I am freakin' bored out of my mind. Dang this Saturday sucks...but later on I think I might go to ATL for fun. I might....never know.

And then on top of that...I have nothing to write. This is real real real boring. I sooooooooooooo BOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRREEEEEDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. I need something to do or somebody to talk too.

Love

Love is something that you cannot play around with. Something that you should share to the person that you care most about. Love is also something that you should not fake or take for granted. Something that you should cherish.  The concept of love is so complicated. You could tell if that person loves you or not because they care about you, and they don't want anything to happen to you. If you love that person, you should tell them and not beat around the bush. Don't be scared. Just give it your best shot. Love may sometimes hurt, but eventually you'll get over it. The pain maybe overwhelming, but everybody goes through it. And that is everybody. Love maybe fun for a while but it is a serious matter. If you say the wrong things, you could hurt someone's feelings, or maybe even yours.

Everythingin life has to do with love. But if you try to stay true you could accomplish that one goaled in life -- LOVE.

I haven't spend so much time with my grandma before for until last Saturday. We had talked about almost everything. And I guess I made my grandma happy cause she usally don't laugh alot. But she had made my eyes open a little bit wider. And I got to see the real truth about life.....

So last Saturday my grandma had watched me and my brothers. We were at my mom and dad's store, and since I'm not 16 yet some adult had to be there watching me. So it was my grandma. For the couple of hours that she was there with me, I got to know her better. See when I was a kid, I really didn't talk to her that much. To tell you the truth I was kinda scared of my own grandma! So hat Saturday I got to know her better. Man....she is cool.....I mean she is tight....cool.....man she is fun to be around with. But anyway when we first had arrived at the store, she had gave me this piece of paper that she wrote when she had got bored. It had said something like this...."Life. Now I know what life is all about. Life is about fancy cars, houses, and money. But even though you have all of this, God can take this all away from you in a blink of an eye." To me this had meant alot alot to me. It had made me open my eyes after she had explained this to me. And after that we were just talking about life. About treating others the way you want to be treated, and being nice no matter how ugly they are on the inside, and about gossip. When she was saying stuff about gossip, she had told me about the time when she had got into a fight when she was in her 20's cause this lady was spreading rumors, that really made me laugh. I couldn't believe that my grandma had got into a fight. But that whole talk was unbelievable. And I'm glad I got to spend my time with my grandma.

I thought a nun was suppose to be nice and caring, but not this one.

See I went to a private school last year, a Catholic school. And my principle was a nun. She was mean,.... to me. And she was real real real ugly. Not to judge, but she was!!! See she didn't wear the outfit thing, but she wore all blue and dress and stuff like that. I think it was their uniform. All the nuns wear that. But sometimes she don't wear all that stuff. One time I seen her with some shorts, and then one time she was wearing some jeans. And all this tight-tight clothing. She really didn't look like no nun anymore. She looked like a hot mess. I thought nuns weren't suppose to wear jeans, short and tight shirts????? But anyway, it got to the end of the year, I had to pick were I was going for high school. I was suppose to go to Mount De Sales. I had a full scholarship for the whole school year. But she what it was, was that my ma still hadn't paid the titution yet. And that nun wanted her money in hand right then and there. My ma couldn't pay it. That nun....to make sure she get her money...she had held my records. And Mount De Sales said they would take me but what was holding me back from getting into that school was that Sister Ellen ( the nun) was holding my records. My ma acutally begged Sister Ellen to release my record, so I can get a good education. But you know what she had said, she said, " You know what Mrs. D. I've worked with you long enough, and you need to keep up with your responsiblities. I can't help you anymore you have to come up with some money." and my ma said, " You know this is my daughter's future, we're talking about Shari's future." And you know what Sister Ellen said, basically what she had said was " I Don't Care." And she is suppose to be a nun???? My dad was telling my ma, "If I had talked to her I would have cussed that B%*$@ out." That's how mad my dad was. He didn't care if she was a nun or not. She really didn't act like a nun. A real nun would have gave my ma some more time, I mean my ma had to begg and she had said no. And on top of that I had a FULL SCHOLARSHIP to go to Mount de Sales!!! That sucks.

That's why I said she didn't act like a nun.

I hate when my dog digs big hole in the ground. I just hate it.

And then when I tell him to stop digging big holes in the ground, all he does is just look at me until I get done talking...and then after that he goes back to digging. He is a real cute dog, but he just doesn't listen. I think it was kind of my ma's fault. When he was a baby, my ma was holding him near the coffe table, and then he was moving and stuff around in her arms and then my dog fell on his head on the coffe table. It was by accident though. He's ok though, nothing happened to him. But I really love my dog.

YEAH BOY!!!!!! 5-0. The best in the county.

Westside High School had faced Central High School today at 7:30  and won by 49 to 22. My school is 5-0. That is so tight. The some other people I know they didn't believe that Westside was going to win. But IN YALL'S FACES. We stomped Central down.

But anyway this week was so boring. They had changed my 3rd period Algebra class to another Algebra class. It is still the same high-honors class but they had to move me and a whole bunch of other people because the class I was in was to full during 3rd period. Man that sucks so much...I had 3rd lunch now I got 1st lunch. I was really getting use to being in 3rd lunch. O yeah, today in Health class, the boy I really like...he smiled at me. I haven't noticed though but he has pretty teeth and a pretty smile. And then in art class this boy name Lang, Hakime, and Chris had tried to start something with me. I know they just playin' but they always be bumping into me on purpose. So when everybody was getting their supplies for art, Lang had got all up in my face talking all this junk. So I had said, Man...u need to get the hell up out my damn face. Then everybody started saying ooooo, I never heard her say that before. Cause most of the time I don't say anything to anybody when I'm doin' my art work. Then Lang got all his boys and junk, and I was like man... ya'll ain't gonna do nothing to me. And this girl name Latifa had got my back. But that whole think...we were just playin. And after class Lang talkin bout some...it seems like you wanna fight me. And then I sed why would I wanna do that? Then he said I don't know...and we both smiled and then the bell rung.

But all in all this week was OK...but not all that.

You know I had just started well I had been started school. But Westside is so tight. Almost everybody that goes there knows me and I know them. Cause they went to my elementary school and my middle school. But mostly I know everybody from middle school, cause that middle school is just down the street from where my high school is. But anyway read what's happening at Westside.

I take Biology for 1st period, P.E/Health for 2nd period, Algebra 1 for 3rd period, and Art for 4th period. I am doing good in all my class. I got like a B, A, B, A, in all my class up top. But anyway, in at least one of my classes there is always a clown. And it is so funny. Like in my art class, man... we got to stand up on the desk one time, and this boy name Hakime said if we get to do this again and Mrs. Shadwell walks by, I am gonna fart in her face. After he said that I just started crackin up. And I know that he will do it too. And then one time in that class, this girl name Ashley had said something was retarted and Mrs. Shadwell wrote her up. She be writting everybody up for no reason. Even if you just laugh which everbody does, she will write you up. But I guess she does that because almost everybody in that class acts bad. But I have never got wrote up in her class yet. In Algebra, man my teacher looks like a dude. She had said she was in the miltary so I guess thats why she dress like a dude. But anyway her class is not hard, I like took that stuff in middle school. And in that class there are two boys name Orin and Nick. There both black, but they act so white (no offense). I am talkin about they are real dark and they act like that. But anyway, it is so funny when they talk like that. Like one time my teacher had said why do yall talk like that,? then she had said yall are such...then she started to put her hands on her lips...but everybody knows what that means, a kiss ass. I had started to crack up again. And then at lunch, man, there is this one girl her name is Sheree, she always sits with me at lunch. And she is kind of getting on my nerves. I don't know wut it is but she just does. Ooo yeah, my P.E. class, there is this boy name Nate, omg, what can I say. He is so cute. And I think he likes me. But I don't never say anything to him, and he doesn't say anything to me, he just looks at me...ALOT. And like one day, he had stood next by me, but not just that...his shoulder was touchin mine. And then somebody had threw this football towards me, he had blocked it for me. That was so cool. And biology is nothing special. Well, I know there is some more stuff going on at Westside, but right now I can't think of it. Maybe later on I will right some more stuff.

Today is Aug. 4th, 2005. My first time in high school.

Today was very strange. It was so crowd in the school. Man I couldn't think. I seen some old friends that had went to middle school with me and some other people that I know. But really I don't like high school. It seems to disorganized. All the students in there were acting so stupid like they ain't got no sence. I really don't wanna go to this school, but I have to do it like everybody else.

MAN I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL!