i know, i know... im so negative.

but inti memang mangkuk!!! bloody server wouldnt even let me download ebrary reader from OUM site. wat so wrong about dat? sudah la library inti ni memang tak banyak buku, then nak gi online library pun tak bleh plak ka? dengki.

skool really sucks for me now. even for OUM even that's usually where i feel belong- wif the non-achievers (no offense). cant wait to grad n get out n do sumthing more meaningful in my life.

tu la makan byk babi sgt, kan dah jadi sebal.

yay. 2day, its been 2 weeks in a stretch (excluding saturday and sunday) dat i go jogging every morning. hell, it juz for half an hour, and coupla times dat i only did 20 minutes. but hey i am not the most diciplines person on earth or sumthin, rite?

when i say jogging, please bear in mind dat i mean lari2 anak at snail pace. do the math- only 2 km in about 30 mins.

whatever. the thing is, at first i never thought i could jog. i mean throughout my skooling days, im convinced dat im too tubby to jog. i would be pancit within the first quarter of larian lebuhraya. now, i have gained so much weight, but suddenly, i can jog! i started really slow earlier this year, babying my fat legs with only a coupla rounds around the padang every other few days. although it isnt much of an improvement now, but i can honestly say dat im getting the hang of it.

i cant wait for azrul to get a bike so we can cycle 2gether :)

bwek

to be an idiot, its very easy. there are many things that i wanna write here, but they seem inappropriate.

i wrecked my brain last nite thinking of how things are gonna turn out for me. i cant do much about my future career right now but to study hard, work hard, etc,etc.. but im afraid, im doing plenty to sabotage my family. my future family.

my selfishness has taken the better part of me. juz when my sayang was being the nicest person ever. its so unfair, i can juz strangle myself.

the more i think, the more apparent it becomes to me what a stupid idiot i was. i mean, what happen to prioritizing as how i would sometime preach? damn, cakap tak serupa bikin..

its like kos lepas, to get something you have to let go of something else to get the max utiliti (or something like that). the point is, its worth to let go of menial things in life for the sake other that matters more.

another funny thing- hujan panas. u can see the sun, but then it rains. and sometimes, it doesnt just rain, it pours. kan sayang?

i better stop b4 i mengarut even more. my overwhelming, simultaneous love and guilt for my sayang is turning my mind to mush.

my sayang, im sick wif shame, guilt and regret, as ur sick of hearing me apologizing. i love you sayang, n i never meant to put you thru all this.

ish tiba2 terfikir nak beli MTB la plak..pikir2 MTB more selesa..tak pyh nak pakai maut2 mcm rider..pakai bermuda+trek+apa2 pun takde hal..teringat at that one shop kat bangsar hari tu:-rodalink..paragon bike RM769..disc brake plak tuh..harga pun murah lagik..camno???

MTB ni ada org nak jual for RM800..Gary Fisher Paragon..sama ke dgn Paragon Indon tu?

mamat nak jual bike tu tepon yesterday..kata bike still available..me plak dalam delima nak beli ke tak sebab harga pun bole tahan mahal gak le..nanti la consult dgn farah n azwar mcm mana

nak beli ke tak??

well.morning sesstion dapat gak buat 2-3 keje..my claim for last month masuk this month hooray!! My colleage tu dah cakap macam biasa balik..me malas nak gaduh2 dgn sapa2..azwar suruh tepon dia pasal schwinn bike tu but sempat ada discussion tadi dgn member keje..nanti ptg la kot..sms farah to pick me up (ngada2 kan suruh tunang pick up hehe) nak ajak lunch..i cant resist to see her everyday..wish that one day she will be with me for the rest of my life..:)

TBC

Geran!! Hari ni pi call around jabatan tanah..but they tak tau geran tu ada kat sapa...and still tak siap lagi..hampeh punya government staffs!!

i need to title la!

today nothin much to do except some routine monitoring on alarms and pura2 buat ada keje..lunch time at secret receipe..farah bayar (nak ambik hati kot)..then otw back still have doubt for what inside my negative mind..wish i can brush it away but cant..i'm trying....

bad day!

suddently azwar email me bout this bike..1st time looking at the pic makes my heart dup dap hehe..really likes the colour and design..its a worth buy if i really serious to ride this time..but i'm afraid buang duit ajek..btw chek the price RM1500 (nego) and its 2nd hand..pros: new 2006 design,4 months old bike..what u think syg?

Morning buat keje ada pending docket sampai sebulan tak solve2...tapi pastu taichi kat Hicom haha..Then lunch dgn Farah kat Carrefour Subang..makan nasi ayam (++ lemak la).Farah makan mee wantan (aku silap order hehe).Then,kita pi beli Sendayu Tinggi sebotol..

Sampai office dah boring balik tak tau apa nak buat..Si Mamat depan ni buat2 bagus lagi tegur pun macam nak tak nak...Bole blah la !!!

Bosan!